Today

Today.

Today I played piano at my friend's grandmother's funeral. It was a little surreal to be back at Glad Tidings... making music on the Petroff for the first time in 9 years. I ran my hand down the ebony black piano that I used to lovingly polish and call to have tuned. The instrument I used to worship on...cry on. I ran into people I haven't seen in almost a decade. We sang... All inbetween comments of 'I can't believe it's you... you look amazing... you look... happy.' How things have changed.

Today I stopped at my bestie's house because I decided I was going to give away some free hugs. Certainly because I love them... but mostly because the matriarch of the family got diagnosed with an agressive cancer on the weekend. Mostly because my friend flew home from Montreal the same day when the news came to light. Mostly because I don't know what to do except to cry with them, pray with them, let them talk... and offer an embrace.

Today I contemplated the purpose of love, which for me looks more like a lesson in futility.

Today for the first time in a long time, I ate my feelings. I'm full but I still feel a little empty.

Today I realized some things really haven't changed at all.